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Vicky Pattison reveals her fear that she would follow in the direction of her alcoholic father

Vicky Pattison has opened up about her father’s battle with alcoholism, and her personal, revealing her fear that she would fall into the identical lure.

The former Geordie Shore star, 34, was recognized for binge consuming and wild nights on the actuality present, and shared that wanting back she is ‘mortified’ and was ‘by no means a pleasant drunk’. 

Vicky additionally recalled considering suicide throughout her stint on the present, with the humiliation overtaking. 

Opening up: Vicky Pattison, 34, has revealed her fear that she would follow in the direction of her alcoholic father… as she recollects considering suicide throughout whereas showing on rowdy Geordie Shore

Talking candidly to The Times, she defined that having grown up with an alcoholic father –  binge consuming in her youth hit residence lots more durable for her than it did for her celebration loving counterparts.

Sharing that her dad, John, who’s now in remission, has suffered two heart assaults, a stroke and most cancers of the mouth – Vicky additionally recollects getting used as a ‘human strolling stick’ whereas supporting him residence from a celebration.

She shared: ‘I used to be at all times begging Dad to cease. He’s tried rehab, AA. He’d get hospitalised to dry out, however he’d begin once more.

Struggles: Sharing that her dad, John (pictured centre) who is now in remission, has suffered two heart attacks, a stroke and cancer of the mouth - Vicky also recalls being used as a 'human walking stick' while supporting him home from a party

Struggles: Sharing that her dad, John (pictured centre) who’s now in remission, has suffered two heart assaults, a stroke and most cancers of the mouth – Vicky additionally recollects getting used as a ‘human strolling stick’ whereas supporting him residence from a celebration

Rowdy: Joining the scandalous cast of Geordie Shore in 2011, at just 22, she admitted that she was 'unable to stop after a few drinks' like others were, leading her into dangerous situations (pictured on the show)

Rowdy: Joining the scandalous cast of Geordie Shore in 2011, at simply 22, she admitted that she was ‘unable to cease after a number of drinks’ like others had been, main her into harmful conditions (pictured on the present)

‘The boys did not need to knock on my door as a result of Dad could possibly be scary. I did not need to be like him. But at factors, I’ve been precisely like him,’ explains Vicky.

Joining the scandalous cast of Geordie Shore in 2011 at simply 22, she admitted that she was ‘unable to cease after a number of drinks’ like others had been, main her into harmful conditions.

‘Loads of people on the present had a very nice time and have become humorous and foolish after which stopped. That was by no means me. I haven’t got an off change and I used to be by no means a pleasant drunk. 

No off switch: 'Loads of people on the show had a really nice time and became funny and silly and then stopped. That was never me. I don’t have an off switch and I was never a nice drunk (L-R) Back row: Greg Lake, Jay Gardner, Gaz Beadle, James Tindle / Front row: Charlotte Crosby, Vicky Pattison, Holly Hagan and Sophie Kasaei

No off change: ‘Loads of people on the present had a very nice time and have become humorous and foolish after which stopped. That was by no means me. I haven’t got an off change and I used to be by no means a pleasant drunk (L-R) Back row: Greg Lake, Jay Gardner, Gaz Beadle, James Tindle / Front row: Charlotte Crosby, Vicky Pattison, Holly Hagan and Sophie Kasaei

Vicky continued: 'I drank to excess and drank dangerous amounts' (pictured with Holly Hagan and Ricci Guarnaccio in 2012)

Vicky continued: ‘I drank to extra and drank harmful quantities’ (pictured with Holly Hagan and Ricci Guarnaccio in 2012)

‘You get sloppy drunks, weepy drunks, aggressive drunks – I used to be all of them. I by no means needed the celebration to cease however I’d be shouting, belligerent. I drank to extra and drank harmful quantities,’ she advised the publication.

The influencer now struggles to look at outdated scenes of her on the present, admitting she wasn’t herself and felt the must play as much as the celebration woman character. 

Vicky has beforehand opened up about considering suicide after she was arrested in 2013, writing that ‘I had lost every thing I had going for me and did not need to live anymore’ in her 2014 book Nothing But The Truth.

The suicidal emotions got here after she was charged for 2 counts of assault for drunkenly throwing a shoe at a lady in a bar – injuring all events concerned.

Mortified: She admits to being 'mortified' when watching scenes from Geordie Shore, unsure whether she 'blocked them out or can't remember them because of the drink' (pictured on the show)

Mortified: She admits to being ‘mortified’ when watching scenes from Geordie Shore, not sure whether or not she ‘blocked them out or cannot keep in mind them as a result of of the drink’ (pictured on the present)

Depression: Vicky has previously opened up about contemplating suicide after she was arrested in 2013, writing that 'I had lost everything I had going for me and didn't want to live anymore' in her 2014 book Nothing But The Truth

Depression: Vicky has beforehand opened up about considering suicide after she was arrested in 2013, writing that ‘I had lost every thing I had going for me and did not need to live anymore’ in her 2014 book Nothing But The Truth

Vicky was ordered to undertake 180 hours of group service and pay compensation to the lady and a employees member, who was caught in the crossfire.

She defined to The Times that each her sister and a friend helped her by the time, and has since, and continues to, obtain remedy.

Appearing on Loose Women back in 2016, Vicky admitted she did not need children and that they ‘aren’t for everybody’, earlier than later telling the Daily Star that children  ‘get on my t**s’.

But Vicky made the determination to freeze her eggs earlier this year as she hopes to have youngsters with fiancé Ercan Ramadan- and has now revealed the actual cause she did not need to grow to be a mom.

'Doesn't see it': Appearing on Loose Women back in 2016, Vicky admitted she didn't want kids and that they 'aren't for everyone', before later telling the Daily Star that kids 'get on my t**s'.

‘Doesn’t see it’: Appearing on Loose Women back in 2016, Vicky admitted she did not need children and that they ‘aren’t for everybody’, earlier than later telling the Daily Star that children ‘get on my t**s’.

Change of heart: But, Vicky made the decision to freeze her eggs earlier this year as she hopes to have children with fiancé Ercan Ramadan

Change of heart: But, Vicky made the determination to freeze her eggs earlier this year as she hopes to have youngsters with fiancé Ercan Ramadan 

Admitting she was afraid that dependancy was too genetic, she defined: ‘The actual cause was as a result of I had all my dad’s points and hang-ups and addictions, and I used to be so frightened my youngsters would find yourself like me: damaged.’

While additionally detailing that not having the ability to drink whereas pregnant was unimaginable for her a number of years in the past, however is less complicated to think about now.

Vicky is about to delve deeper into her previous and household in her new Channel 4 documentary My Dad, Alcohol and Me.

For assist and confidential help relating to something in this story, name the Samaritans on 116123 or go to https://www.samaritans.org/ 

Taking the plunge: Admitting the real reason she previously didn't want kids, she explained: 'The real reason was because I had all my dad’s issues and hang-ups and addictions, and I was so frightened my children would end up like me: broken'

Taking the plunge: Admitting the actual cause she beforehand did not need children, she defined: ‘The actual cause was as a result of I had all my dad’s points and hang-ups and addictions, and I used to be so frightened my youngsters would find yourself like me: damaged’

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